I’m standing in my kitchen after work making an actual meal for what feels like the first time in months. It honestly might be. Normally, I’d wash the all the dishes in the sink, but I decided to blog instead of doing dishes. It’s something I’ve been needing to get around to, but I wasn’t sure what I had to say.
So I’ve been procrastinating on a bunch of other things that I love doing instead of writing these blogs, but I kept thinking about what I had to say and how I wanted to say it because I wanted to make sure my brand was totally me. Throughout the process, I continuously wanted to say the same three things about myself. I called myself platform, media maven, and creative thinker, but I also am an expert procrastinator and a full time friend to an amazing group of individuals who challenge me to think freely and critically.
I’ve spent my last spring semester developing my brand and I thought a lot about how I want people to see and understand me. I couldn’t figure it out. I felt defeated, run down, and like giving up. So I decided to embrace procrastination and my last opportunities to surround myself with people who listened to my ideas and more importantly, shared their ideas with me.
It didn’t make sense for me to experience stress and anxiety over writing a series of blog posts for class, so I moved on to different tasks on my list. I wasn’t doing the work I needed to do right now, but I still needed to do it nonetheless and I actually got things done.
Instead of writing these blog posts I released Platform. I wanted to create something on my own time, by my own rules. So I did. Instead of writing these blog posts, I rearranged my room. I wanted more space to create and breathe in. So I made a change. Instead of writing these blog posts, I booked local artists and bands in my living room and listened to their words. I wanted to have a good time with my friends. So I did.
Now, instead of doing the dishes, I’m writing these blog posts and I’m enjoying it. Because it’s on my own time, by my own rules, and I'm not doing dishes. Procrastination doesn’t always have to be a dirty word. For me, procrastination is a driving factor behind productivity.
I heard one time that we procrastinate through the rough times in our lives as a means of coping. I don’t know if it’s true, but I think I get it. And I think someone else said if you spend enough time doing something you eventually become an expert.